{"id":499,"date":"2002-12-14T17:54:40","date_gmt":"2002-12-15T00:54:40","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.m-dnovember.com\/?p=497"},"modified":"2002-12-14T17:54:40","modified_gmt":"2002-12-15T00:54:40","slug":"self-torture-and-finding-ones-happy-place","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.m-dnovember.com\/?p=499","title":{"rendered":"Self-torture and finding one&#039;s happy place."},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Everyone loves the holiday season, or so many people would lead us to believe.  Those people, tho, would be full of shite.<\/p>\n<p>I don&#8217;t like the holiday season.  I don&#8217;t have anything against any one holiday, and (surprise) it&#8217;s not because I&#8217;m a &#8220;Jew at Christmas&#8221;.  No.  The holidays, you see, are about being around &#8216;loved ones&#8217;, or, taken more literally, your significant other.  There&#8217;s one problem with that &#8211; I don&#8217;t have a significant other.  Never have, actually.  Probably never will.  So every year, when the holidays roll around, I get to look at all the trappings of the season, and the happy couples kissing under the mistletoe, &amp; kissing on Christmas Eve, &amp; kissing on New Year&#8217;s Eve, and I remember just how alone I am in this world.  After 27 years, it starts to take its toll.<\/p>\n<p>In the past, if I&#8217;ve ever felt overly uncomfortable, I would make some weak excuse and remove myself from a &#8220;holiday situation&#8221;.  Sure, it means I&#8217;d be sitting alone in my room all night, but at least I could deal with my issues in my own way.  This year, tho, not only am I surrounded by couples (living with one, best friends with another), but within my own apartment I&#8217;m going to be surrounded by the crap that makes me want to hate this time of year.  Normally, I could deal with either of those issues individually.  But I am having a little trouble (ok, more than a little trouble) dealing with both of the same time.  So if I seem a little bitter\/angry\/upset\/emotional\/unable to deal, or you hear what you&#8217;d swear is sobbing coming from my room, you know why.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Everyone loves the holiday season, or so many people would lead us to believe. Those people, tho, would be full of shite. I don&#8217;t like the holiday season. I don&#8217;t have anything against any one holiday, and (surprise) it&#8217;s not because I&#8217;m a &#8220;Jew at Christmas&#8221;. No. The holidays, you see, are about being around [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2},"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-499","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p2hxip-83","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.m-dnovember.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/499","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.m-dnovember.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.m-dnovember.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.m-dnovember.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.m-dnovember.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=499"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.m-dnovember.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/499\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.m-dnovember.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=499"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.m-dnovember.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=499"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.m-dnovember.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=499"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}